A Surreal World: Massacre At Virginia Tech

Days ago, I'm still mourn about my baby lost. Today, people start to mourn about at least confirmed 33 lives including gunman himself gone.

I was totally shocked. How can that happen? I do not understand how can that world turns out to be a surreal reality. No matter how much condolences shared with their family and friends, the lives was lost forever.

I was frighted when I heard the news that the gunman seems to try to take down as much lives as possible when shooting happened. After I lost my expecting baby, I can really understand how sorrowful it can be. The world turned out to be no color, no sound, nothing to feel and nothing left. I felt totally blank even I just start to expecting for 2 months. I can not image how those families can think after they lost their proud kids. I felt more than angry to that gunman. He may have rights to take away his life, how can he do that grim thing to all others easily?

It's not just one person's fault. Even before the authorities get their conclusion, I can say that. I can not blame everything to that deadly gunman.

The tragic event sounds like a movie. You will never expect it happen in real life, no matter it closes to yours or somebody else life.

The modern society is losing its moral foundation. Is the world becoming such a evil place to live? I don't believe that I ever heard that much sick things happened before. It seems like the crime is getting worse. Why?

Look at people who make a lot of money from weapon transactions, and ask why the rule to control weapons can never be passed? I hope that the unbelievable event can bring the gun restriction back to table. I also hope that those stakeholders can offer the real help instead of playing politics to those people who are and will be affected by the tragedy.

Look at the fact that so many innocent people died during the war, and ask why an invasion can be supported by the government who supposedly maintain the peace?

Everybody deserves his or her peaceful life, no matter he or she lived in Virginia or Iraq.

I'm still horrified by the tragedy. I just hope the massacre can be prevented in the future by peaceful mind, instead of more security.

Life is unfair (2)

It was in draft mode for a while. I decided to publish it since that was my life and the happiness once with me even it is unfinished:

I waited a while for the final result. I kept refreshing the online lab result, nothing new came out. I felt the time goes so slow. Or maybe we're just so eager to know the result. Einstein's theory of relativity has been proved again here. I can't wait for the next appointment 2 weeks later. I have to know NOW.
I emailed my doctor questioning the lab result. I kept refreshing my inbox and hope for a reply sitting there.
Finally, a message arrived at my inbox: " Yes, you're pregnant according to the test result."
Wow! what else can be more exciting than this? At the same time, I start to worry a lot: will everything be fine or not? How scare the delivery will be? Will I be a good mom and responsible for my baby? Will that be she or he? Oh, I do not really care about the answer to the last questions.
We went to buy prenatal vitamins immediately. After that, we are so exciting and can't stop smiling. In a word, I can not express how happy I am. We start to call our parents, since they're waiting for it for a while.
We decide that we have to move to a better school district. Even we do not have baby yet, we start to worry about his or her future. I can understand why people are willing to pay a lot for a good school district house for their kids now.
We go to pregnancy lessons. We collect a lot of information online and from books. We absorb every knowledge useful for our baby. Suddenly it is the only world we have.
That is just the start. It is thrilling feeling when we hear the heart beat from baby. Doctor printed out the picture of fetus. That tiny baby changed our whole world.